Collection Of Thoughts Inspired

Friends with benefits

2011-08-16T04:48:00.000-07:00

Share my bed; we don’t have to count sheep.
Just stay up and talk so there’s no time for sleep.
It’s only big enough for 1 of us, so lay across me calm.
Can you feel my hand shake as you grip my palm?
We should be just friends but tonight is different.
It’s strange how time can alter the frequent.
I don’t like the way I’m looking at you of late.
Cos I’ve always been a sceptic of love and fate.

Pessimists give way to an optimistic thought,
It’s the only irony that cannot be taught,
Unlike the lucid dreaming of insomniacs,
A castle collapsing without an attack,
Or A broken watch, that’s time is right,
A young librarian who’s lost her sight,
Or a story teller who’s literally lost the plot,
You won’t like this, but you, friend, are all I’ve got.
The problem is, is that we’re just magnets,
As we lie beneath the blankets,
When we’re so close we can’t be parted.
But it can’t end if we never started,
And if you turn and repel we’d both be liberated.
And to do that we’d never be conjugated.
And then we’d both lay there empty and deflated.
Tell me baby, are these feelings just over-rated?

Share my bed; your scent has left me still.
I’m trying to resist this, but I’m losing my will.
The blanket barely covers me, I don’t want you to freeze,
I already had goose bumps, when your leg met my knees.
You look so peaceful, eyes resting for minute,
I know this will end badly, you’ve pushed me to my limit,
Doing nothing and I’m falling and that’s what I hate.
Cos I’ve always been a sceptic of love and fate.
Pessimists give way to an optimistic thought,
It’s the only irony that cannot be bought,
Unlike the lucid dreaming of insomniacs,
A castle collapsing without an attack,
Or A broken watch, that’s time is right,
A young librarian who’s lost her sight,
Or a story teller, who’s literally lost the plot,
You won’t like this, Darling, but you’re all I’ve got.

Pessimists give way to an optimistic thought,
It’s the only irony that cannot be taught,
Unlike the lucid dreaming of insomniacs,
A castle collapsing without an attack,
A broken watch, that’s time is right,
A young librarian who’s lost her sight,
Or a story teller who’s lost the plot,
You won’t like this, lover, but you’re all I’ve got.

The problem is, is that we’re just magnets,
As we lie beneath the blankets,
When we’re so close we can’t be parted.
But it can’t end if it never started,
And if you turn and repel we’d both be liberated.
And to do that we’d never be conjugated.
And then we’d both lay there empty and deflated.
Tell me baby are these feelings really over-rated?

Sophomore

2011-07-11T16:14:00.000-07:00

Sophomore?

Am I just a number on a door?
Or the rain of the summer,
And the smell of petrichor?

Am I just some background noise?
The fracas in commotion,
Or a man amongst the boys?

Am I just a cast-away?
Adrift from irrevocable,
Off-track from the stray?

Am I just an antonym?
Reversed of the inversed,
A contradiction victim?

Am I just uninspired?
Obsolete and sterile,
Asleep when I’m not tired?

I don’t know what the future holds,
All that I do is past,
What I do know is, I right now,
Am neither first nor last.

By David Wells

More like a fly zapper than a light

2010-09-16T13:35:00.000-07:00

More like a fly zapper than a light

I wasn’t scared of anyone.
Then you said you’re going away.
Now I’m scared that someone else,
Will lay where I once lay.

The thing that kept me going,
was you, all summer long.
I thought we were going somewhere,
You told me I thought wrong.

I know I’m not as beautiful,
special or as smart.
But you didn’t give me chance,
and broke my little heart.

Open your arms,
and hold me tight.
Cos I’m just a moth,
and you are the light. X 2

PAUSE

I’ll find someone else,
with greener eyes,
with blacker hair,
who will realise how much I care,
cos shes not aware

What am I thinking,
there’s nothing I can do.
No way to find a girl,
who smiles like you.
someone else,
with greener eyes,
with blacker hair,
who will realise how much I care,
but shes not aware

Open your arms,
and hold me tight.
Cos I’m just a moth,
and you are the light.

I know she’s a fly zapper, but her light is too bright.

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2009-12-15T08:47:00.000-08:00

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2009-12-01T13:45:00.001-08:00

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Rant #4 - Autobiographies

2009-11-12T09:38:00.000-08:00

I am grateful for: Jumpers, Strangers, Finishing UCAS
Song today: Attack!Attack! - Say It To Me
Feeling: Cold, Tired, Intrigued
Currently: Watching Everyone Hates Chris
Later: Finish reading Frankie Boyles book.

After reading the opening chapters to the hillarious Frankie Boyle autobiography, "My Shit Life So Far". Its inspiring me to think about: My life, if im famous - my autobiography, whats the title going to be? What would i put in it? And more importantly, Who the fuck would want to read about my life?! Well, your reading this and I'm not even THAT famous yet. Its a start.

Lets try and answer those questions:

The Title?
Has to be something witty, quick, sly yet tell something about the truth. For instance Dale Wintons' autobiogrpahy is called "My Struggle". It is the same title as Adolf Hitlers, translated to German "Mein Kampf". This is witty because it looks like "Mein Kamp"! Which he certainly is.

What am i going to be famous for? Murder? Celeb slag? National treasure? mmmm... Maybe cos im a not a skinny lad to say the least, "Chasing the marathon".
The title in gold print with me doing the biography pose.... you know the elbow rested against something whilst my head is cupped into my hand. I give a small content smile and the book cover is complete. Set pride of place in the hardback shelf in WHSmiths. But not waterstone, far to posh to bother with my ruffian material.

What do i put in the book?
i dunno. what do people usually put? How good/shit was my childhood. I went to some rough comprehensive and found refuge in a teacher who set me on my path to become sucessful. found a friend who i saved from commiting suicide...

NO. cos nothing like that happened. None of my friends are depressed to death. and I had boring teachers. One teacher in year 3 was so boring, he looked like a ball bag with his almost bald head and was as interesting as a damp teabag in lukewarm water. My only memory of him was at every christmas disco that "uncle bobs dancng disco" (an old bloke playing barbie girl dressed up like timmy mallet) didnt goto he would wear a groucho marx mask and do the "Superman" song over a scabby tape recorder! even when i was like 7, and words like willy my me laugh, it wasnt funny ; he seemed like a wanker.

So that would leave my failure of teenage years and (i am famous) my tragically exposed adult life.

Who would want to read my book?
Stalkers, ex's (if i have more than 1) - to check how many lies ive spread about them, the people who bought my bought thinking it was about David Wells the Psychic, people who like laughing at people falling down and those who laugh then fall upstairs themselves... yes i do mean UP-stairs.

Yes its shit. But the book will be the worse.

Have You Noticed ? #1

2009-11-03T04:48:00.000-08:00

I am grateful for: NME TV, Postal Workers, Food, Live Music
Song today: The Specials - Gangsters
Feeling: Happy, Wet, Cold
Currently: Recovering after food, watching NME TV
Later: Back to College.

This is a new thing to the Blog. Have you noticed will be about little things that you notice, but don't necessarily pay attention to.

This Have you noticed is dedicated to buses.

1. The bus mans wave. Have you noticed that every time one bus driver passes another they do a little wave (often followed by a friendly poke at how drunk they were last night out of the window). But this only happens if its the same bus company. Stagecoach will wave at Stagecoach only! If its 2 rival companies you get the bus mans nod. A small gesture of friendliness between a bloody war for tickets and taxiing about!

2. Seating position. It sort of follows the rule of the urinals. You try and sit as far away (at least 1 vacant row away) from the next person as possible. When the bus starts to fill up, you pray that nobody sits by you. Damn it! Its some old woman who doesn't like that your wearing earphones, so she looks at you with a discerning look as she rests her tins of spam on your feet. Or Damn it! Its some old Pikey bloke on the way to the pub! He reeks of gin and wont stop laughing at everything. Watch him as he pervs on the school girls getting on the bus. Watch as he stumbles about trying to get off, you would swear the bus is still moving the way hes wobbling!

3. Ungrateful grannies! You get up for the oldies, its the unwritten law. If you take more than 3 seconds in getting up and away, they dont thank you, instead sit down and start moaning about how horrible young people are, " no manners, just walk about thinking they own everything and wont even give up a seat for you! What they need is a clip around the ear, if my graham was here hed give em a bash! ".... Excuse me! What do you think i just did for you?

4. Last bus of the night. Usually about 11.30pm -12.00 am. Get on it, full of homeless men and alchys. All really nice to be fair, always ask me do i want a swig of their 3p per litre cider or a dram of Cheap Whiskey. :) I say no of course, dont want Alchy germs.

5. Run out of seats? Standing a pain? Sit in the luggage carrier... Everyone seems to do it!

6. Everyone in the city wants 20p for the bus! Haven't they heard of inflation? And they will probs save them up and buy some gin!

7. Bus Regulars. O look its the woman who wears the same cat tie all the time.... O god, not them inbreds again.... Im sure the bloke who gets on at the lights is a Nazi...

8. Getting on the back of the bus when you get off next stop. Everyone stares at you. But the back of the bus is the best :D 5 seats in row and closer to the heaters.

9. The person who presses the button by accident gets looks for the rest of the time on bus like they have killed a baby. Often followed by tuts and shaking of heads.

10. Nobody reads the metro, just pick it up and leave it on the seat next to you in an attempt to stop people sitting by you!

Poem - Morning has Broken

2009-10-27T16:10:00.000-07:00

The morning broke just as my heart did,
Lay internally submerged in tearful pits,
Victim of the insomnia I thought I rid,
It hurts more that my face admits.

I don’t show it anymore,
The emotional dead end,
The butterflies don’t flap anymore,
They become weighted and descend .

I still feel your embrace,
Imprinted into me from last time,
A memory that too hard to erase,
When I thought you were mine.

I smile at you just to ignore myself,
Knowing your not in your company,
You return it in lightning stealth,
Sending your gaze back to the one you chose over me.

In arctic shiver quakes up my spine,
Your delicate fingers are consumed,
A giant paw devours it and then fingers align,
Your eyes shine a familiar shine.

My head drops faster than the butterflies,
Finds sight of the shoes I bought her,
All because of one significant lie,
As long as I’m me, its him she’ll prefer.

I see the shoes moving out of my vision,
Followed by his, then it hits,
Pain strikes my chest in prefect precision,
It hurts more that my face admits.
I realise watching the couple depart,
Morning has broke and so has my heart.

Last Night Was Fun

2009-10-24T03:54:00.000-07:00

I am grateful for: Friends, Fire, BIG ass beer glasses, Kareoke
Song today: Taking Back Sunday - New Again
Feeling: Slightly hungover, but not bad.
Currently: Eating Special K
Later: Cinema, maybe?

Its now half term. I dont drink much. The drink down "the pub" didnt come off cos Alun was pissed off at how when he went away to Blackpool some of the boys pissed on his car spread this toffie shit all on it. So he didn't want to go wiht them. Being a good friend i stepped in and said, "ive got a free house tonight, ive gotta bbq hut thing, and a phone. Lets ring up Matt and Gareth and have a laugh." Picked up some booze fromt he spar where i got served without question! :O Thats too easy in there. No challenge haha.

After every new Can/bottle opened there was a tradition. We shouted "Attention please!" and give a speech and end it by toasting Stephen Gately, Patrick Swayzee and Michael Jackson! SO funny. And the buzz words of the night were "2 fat ladies 22!", Well we drank, we sang along to kareoke, did a mini BBQ and watched rugby and Bliss with top 10 Boyzone. What made the night so much fun was beign wiht a bunch of lads with hearts. Legends.

Now to think. This isnt random, it came up in coversion yesterday. Colon clense. I am the only one who would be willing to have it. It consists of having a tube up ure arse and basically flushing out any rubbish up there. Nice. But its very very good for you. The boys kept saying it was "gay" but its not. They dont get that "gay" is when your attracted to the same sex. Im not, i just want a clean Anus.

Makeover and the BNP

2009-10-23T02:49:00.000-07:00

I am grateful for: Rain, Sounds, Sense And My Bed
Song today: The Smiths - This Charming Man
Feeling: Sedate
Currently: Laying In Bed On The Laptop
Later: Going To Visit Nan In Nursing Home, Attempting To Go Underage Drinking.

Im loving my new layout and title. took me longer than it shouldve to be honest. Im very pleased with the result though. Im going to concentrate on my thoughts from now on i think. And Thanks to Everyone Who Follow And Read My Blogs, past and present.
I Based the image on "The Thinker"- is a bronze and marble sculpture by Auguste Rodin; It depicts a man in sober meditation battling with a powerful internal struggle. Aren't we all like that? I certainly am. I like the image that I've chosen is dripping in rain, Because I think best in the rain. Something clensing and pure about it that washes away all the cobwebs that dont make you think straight.

Watched Question Time last night. Impressive performance from Bonnie Greer, a black american chair in the British history museum. Totally destoryed him on every point but instead of ranting, put a logical arguement together with couldnt have been argued against. Simple. Effective. How dare he say the Ku Klux Klan were "Non-Violent", felt sick at the thought. I'm sorry but im about to show you why hes wrong.

I apologise for this. But it proves a point. How angry does this complete evil C*** make you that he says these people are "non-violent"?! I wonder what his idea of Violence is then? Since he openly denied the holocaust then changed his mind because it is illegal in France and Germany. Maybe hes right, "Non-indigenous" people should go back to thier own countries! Right get on your boats people because im sure nobody in Britain can say that thier family 10000 years ago was British born and hasnt had a single other nationalality in thier bloodline at sometime. As Bonnie Greerpointed out. We all came from Africa. So does that make them the indigenous people. These arguements dont hold up! Im so angry! BNP preach racist ideology and get away with it. Id like to see them hang from a tree. Equality for EVERYONE please!

Now for the thinking bit. I have a friend who likes the BNP, he supports thier brother groups, like "casuals united" (whose website has to remind members not the zeig hiel), as someone who is dead against these idea and has close friends who are ethnic minorities, can i be friends with him anymore? Im thinking grit my teeth and argue with him as much as possible. because otherwise im discriminating against someone for thier political/ideological beliefs! Which is what the Nazis did. So I shall continue talking with him, but im not going to be friendly with him.

I Haven't Blogged For A While

2009-10-22T11:33:00.000-07:00

I am grateful for: Common Sense, Talking, The Car, Smiles
Song today: The Temper Trap - Sweet Disposition + Ou Est Le Swimming Pool - Dance The Way I Feel
Feeling: Happy, Warm, Melodramatic
Currently: Relaxing and Thinking
Later: Watching Questiontime

This isn't going to be a rant today. Because I've seen sense. I'm not on drugs, don't worry. Sipping on Warm chai tea while the dark rain is lashing against my windows has made me think. Some of the things i did in the summer changed me. I promised myself to be more confident, not so trusting, not so nice, don't dwell on what happened. Have I changed? I hope so, but instead of being a bastard i have become more mature I think. I'm appraoching things from new angles, trying to patch up holes in my life. Have a laugh but not be complete twat! I think the change has been noticable, ive had a few comments from my close friends. I think the telling whether i enjoy how i changed will come in the next few months. Hopefully ill be walking around with a smile on my face.

Im looking forward to winter. I love the cold, i love winter clothes. Im going to be 18 in December - Officially a man! Cheers. Havent decided what im going to do for it. Im thinking becuase its on a Sunday, go out for a meal. Then next weekend, Steaming to the max, with each of my different groups of friends. Speaking of which, trying to goto the pub tommorrow, every has been served there but I usually dont becuase I look about 12. O well worth a go.

Also in the next few months im going to see a lot of Live Music which i love. A shame Bloc Party cancelled i was absolutely gutted about that but i think The Speacials, Kids in glass houses, attack attack, tiger please, Paramore, Youmeatsix and all the rugby im going to see will make up for it!

I'm actually enjoying college this year, HONEST! IM NOT TAKING DRUGS! I think its becuase i dont have to sit on disease factories(busses) every day, i get up later, go home earlier. And more importantly i dont have biology. Im enjoying my subjects mostly and the people in the classes, also kept most the of teachers i liked.

BNP are on Question Time Tonight. Good. Because they deserve to be there! People have given them seats in European Parliment. So its there right to be there. I just hope to god the likes of Jack Straw and other panellists tears Nick Griffin to pieces!

Rant #2

2009-09-16T08:55:00.000-07:00

I am grateful for: Common Sense, Spotify, Being insured on a car.
Song today: Muse - The Resistance (The Whole Album)
Feeling: Annoyed, busy
Currently: About to ring dominos regarding the job
Later: Bike ride maybe?

Firstly, I applied for a job in dominos and got it, as a driver. They wanted me to use my own car. Fair enough. They would insure me business insurance. Fair enough. However on minimum wage of £3.80 odd an hour it woudl ahrldy be worth my time. they would pay me 85p Petrol money to deliver stuff to swffrwyd....So it would cost me to do the job, and i would get beaten up... Good times.
The rant starts here>

1.Expolitation- How dare they pay me so little to do a job that isnt completyely unskilled AND would cost me money to do!!!! ALSO, they wanted £50
'deposit' off me for a uniform....aka, a shirt with "dominos" on it!

2.Ageism - I get paid less becuase im young. Its nto my fault im my age. I wouldve done the same amount of work, and get paid less. If I ran a business saying The darker your skin the less you get paid, there would be uproar! However, people can legally say, the younger you are the less you get paid! That is disgusting! The anti-agesist employment legislation a few years ago promised end to age discrimination... yet it seems to be only concentrated on the old age.

3.Petrol prices - Its fair the tresury needs money from somewhere to fund our state (and the MPs). Yes, its a good idea, fuel tax, emmissions tax, etc. But cmon, the cost of crude oil has actually dropped slightly and yet the price of petrol has gone up. Businesses like haulage companies are going under every day becuase they cant afford petrol. Time to act. i think a strike is in order please.

4.Democracy - The TUC had its conference this week, i hear less and less from unions these days, where is the power gone in the people? Democracy - DEMOS KRATIS - People power. I am all in favour for it, the way our government is chosen is pretty dodgy. Not proportional at all! If you agree that the system needs to chage goto "www.voteforachange.co.uk" and sign the petition! Gordon Brown has already responded to one letter.

5.Driving - People who use thier phones whilst driving - Get off them , its illegal for a reason you dull bitch! GRRRR. Also, People who cant read the sign on the traffic calming thing that says, give way to oncoming cars. OI!!! It's my right of way, you thick shits!!!! YES, I AM POINTING AT THE SIGN AND HONKING, COS IM RIGHT!!!

6.College food - Canteens are overpriced and sell shit food, sticky, cold, poorly made, rock hard, no nutrients in them. Go outside of college - Chips...or theres chips...or theres chips... Im bringing my own food from now on.

Thoughts on 10th August, AM

2009-08-10T05:03:00.000-07:00

I am grateful for: Sleep/Fish Pie/Friends who i can be open with and vice versa/MSN

Song today: Linkin Park - New Divide

Feeling: Better! Healthy!

Currently: Smelling Fish Pie Cooking and watching Scuzz/NME TV

Later: Who knows, got nothing planned :/

Had a funny convo with a friend last night about relationships, nipple ons, jealousy and Iceland. She also gave me some good advice and i think we both needed to talk about stuff....
....Wait as im writing this, that envirophone advert came on and made me laugh at when that fat bloke shouts "WONGA!!!". I found a 4 minute loop of that clip on youtube LMAO! Sad. Anyways...

Been getting into some stuff by Deepak Chopra, hes very interesting and thought provoking, even inspiring. Ive been reading his daily inspirations on his website. I'm an athiest, a Big athiest but some of his thoughts on spiritualism makes me think, very clever. Check it out! or at least follow his twitter "@Deepak_Chopra".

Seriously thinking of emigrating from Wales after my teaching degree. I cant stand the weather, this country prides itself on communities. Living in a small village i should see it more than anyone. Yet, i dont. Why? False class consciousness caused by Thatcherite policys of breaking up the working class. If i stay around here, what do i have to look forward to? Shitty villages, overfilled, nobody talks, every just sits in thier homes watching Tv cos its raining outside, again, and when its sunny, the beautiful welsh landscape destroyed to make way for hotels and factories. .....The rape of my fair land. The welsh assembly, appeasing us, yet costs a fortune, like s4c, pointless, it doesnt have enough law making powers and filled with people who arent even welsh, nor people who lived here. My kids would have to play in polluted where the rivers are orange from the mine workings beneath them rusting, no parks to play in, becuase the council thinks they are unsafe, and would be put to better use builing houses in. They would goto overcrowded schools, in povertous conditions, taught "key skills"-loada shit. If i dont make enough money, they wouldnt be able to goto college, because nobody can afford the costly bus service, to a place thats miles away and again overfilled and with delapidated buildings. We get given "European Union inititive 1 emergency funding" because parts of this area are in worse conditions of poverty than romania. This is "Great" Britain, like fuck is it! So great it leaves nations starve and die whilst filling the pockets of greedy bankers whos eyes were too big for their stomachs. All justified by the biased media always looking for blood!I could go on....and on....

Fuck you Britain! I leaving.

EDIT: P.S: This justifes what i say, read it few seconds after writing it. : http://www.nus.org.uk/en/News/News/Anger-over-government-plans-to-evict-students-from-affordable-homes/

Thoughts Today

2009-08-08T06:13:00.000-07:00

Dont want to start a daily diary, i wont be motivated to keep it up, so i think ill just post something every few days.

I am grateful for: Spotify putting Brand New on there/Ice-Cream/BBC putting on more sport!

Song today: Everlong - Foofighters

Feeling: Bit ill, stomach bug

Currently: Watching Challenge Cup Semi final.

Later: Relaxing, making sure im feeling good for tommorrow.

Gutted that last night didnt happen, its gunna be moved to tommorrow now instead. Cant wait. :) I was supposed to be playing sevens today. Did my shoulder in, so i wasnt going to play but i wouldve still gone up, now i cant becuase of this bloody bug, i hope its not swine flu, nah, im not fluey :P. ive missed loadsa training cos of my hectic life, thats why i wasnt goign to play rugby, if they dont like it, theyll have to find another player then. tbh i think the youth side looks poor, so low on numbers, itll be hard to get a tidy team out every week. i just dont think people wanna goto preseason training. no wonder, its 2 hours of solid non stop work. the next day you wanna chop your muscles off your body cos they sting. then again, think im fitter allready, gotta bigger lung capacity. though i realise how small i actually am for a forward, im gunna get destroyed. The team was planning on pulling out of the tournie "cos they dont have a beer tent! you cant have a sevens tournie without a beer tent, whats the point of it then!"

Enough on rugby. Cleaning my guitar this morning, i realised how muhc im missing my guitar pedal, i need to find another plug fast. i hate playing without distortion :P I love playing metal music, but didnt really enjoy listenign to it. until sonisphere! now im getting into it, especially aveneged sevenfold! Thank god for spotify i say. Also, i neve rliek slow, lovey, soppy songs, but again, i have listening to them a lot lately. i dont think ive experienced the lyrics before, now im getting these new experiences emotionally, i can relate to it and enjoy it :D Inspiring me a bit.

Thats all for now.